The Sea of Hidden Emotions (a poem)

You tell me to to talk because I never do; I talk and you get angry. What the hell do you expect me to do? (Excuse my french.)

The Sea of Hidden Emotions
By

Samantha N.

Holding in emotions
Trapped in a cage like animals
Under lock and key
Hidden deep inside
Nobody can see
How much I’m really hurting.

I hold it all in
Too tough, too proud
To say anything
To stand my ground.

I shut my mouth
Zip it tight
Afraid to speak, to show, to let you see.

Can you understand?
Will you listen to me?

I want to let you in
But first I need to believe
That in the end
My choice won’t break me.

I’m fragile
Held it in for much too long
Constantly singing
My sorrowful song.

A song of pain
A song of grief
Filled with sadness, hurt, and anxiety.

A storm of emotions
Threatening to spill
Can’t hold it in
I’m sure to erupt
The clock is ticking
A bomb ready to burst

I’m drowning in my own demise
Set myself up
Sure to die

How long can I possibly last
When under the surface I’m ready to blast
Screaming that I want out
But I’m lost in the sea
Of hidden emotions

There’s no way out
I’m stuck.

There’s no way out.

Forever I shall be trapped.

POW Bracelet

My Grandma was out shopping who knows where, but the guy at the shop had a POW bracelet. It was the only one he had, and she bought it and gave it to me earlier today.

Now, if you don't know, POW (Prisoner of War) bracelets were popular in about the 60's-70's, and were made to represent someone who had gone MIA or been captured by the enemy. They were worn to show we still had that person (as well as all the others) in our hearts and minds (or, should I say, the people of the 60's and 70's) and some people wore them until that person returned home safe and sound. They had information about that particular POW/MIA engraved on them.

I actually love the idea of this, and think people should still do it, for all Soldiers, and not just POW/MIAs. I actually did something of the sort for my adopted Soldier (through the AAUSS program) that I planned to wear until her deployment is up, but my bracelet has decided to go MIA and I cannot find it ANYWHERE. Which really makes me sad. :( I made her one to match, as well.

Anywayyyy.

So I have this POW bracelet, and obviously it is quite old. I would love to know if this person was ever found (hopefully alive)/returned home. It reads (exactly) "Capt. Peter Hesford" and below that "3-21-68".

Obviously his name and rank, and I guess the date is when he went missing or was captured. I googled it and somebody on a memorial website mentioned having a POW bracelet with the his name on it (they said "Peter Dean Hesford" but not if that's what the bracelet actually read- same bracelet and they found out his middle name? Different bracelet and same person? Different person? I don't really know), and mentioned wearing it and praying for him and being allowed to see a picture of him from his POW/MIA file when serving in the AF.

They never litterally said that he was "assumed dead" or "found dead" but it sort of sounded implied. It WAS a memorial website. So is it the same person? Should I assume the Soldier on my bracelet has indeed, sadly, died?

I don't know. I would love to know if there is a list of the bracelets made and what is known of the Soldier's whose names are on them.

Weirdly, my english teacher last year brought these up once, and said how she had one and they were popular and all, and in the mornings on the news they would show a list of names of the Soldiers who had returned home. She said she never saw her Soldier's name.

I wish I knew if there was anyway to find out if it's even worth wearing the bracelet. (I mean, of course it's worth it. He was still a Soldier and a POW and deserves recognition.) I just wish I knew the back story to such an old 'relic'... of sorts.

Camp NaNoWriMo

What's that, you say? You're going to camp? And what does that crazy writing thing you did last November have to do with it?

Well, I'm not going to an ACTUAL camp, but I'd say this is better! :D

That's right, folks. Camp NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month, if you'll remember. I DID post about that, didn't I?) has started it's second round and I'm participating this month! What did you say? You don't even KNOW what Camp NaNo is!?

Well, let me explain!

NaNoWriMo, if you do not know, takes place in November and the goal is to write a 50,000 word novel in a month. I know, I know, what crazy person partakes on something like that? As a matter of fact, thousands and thousands of people do every year! All across the globe. The atmosphere is great, it sparks creativity you didn't know you had or increases what you knew you did, there will be many laughs along the way, you're sure to make a friend or two, and in the end you have a novel to show for it! Something nobody else in the world has written exactly as you have, created those characters or that world, something totally and uniquely yours!

Well Camp officially started on August first (for this round, last month was the first and kind of like a beta/testing month) and today makes day three. Unlike last November when I did NaNo for the first time, I didn't start out writing like wild fire, typing out thousands of words each day and beginning way ahead of the game. As a matter of fact, I'm not even keeping up with the game!

But I am a looooong way from giving up, even if I never catch up.

I am also excitedly waiting to be placed in my Camp Cabin! Whoever I get placed with are sure to be the most awesome people on the planet- though I'm sure all my non-cabin mates are still just as cool!

For all you fellow Camp Wrimos, good luck to you this month. Never, EVER quit even if you believe you have NO chance of winning! Keep writing! Always remember to write, write, WRITE!

As for you non-Wrimos, try it. If not this month for camp (never to late a time to start!), then in November. Trust me you will absolutely not regret it. :D

NaNoWriMo.org
CampNaNoWriMo.org

Also, feel free to check out Script Frenzy (which takes place in April) and the Young Writer's Program!

Eagerly awaiting my Cabin,
Samantha <3